July 31st?

Where did July go?  We did a bit of traveling and a lot of working but no big victories for July.

While I usually don’t use my blog to vent, sometimes I can’t pretend that my life is just beer and happy things (even though I did get my GABF tickets yesterday!).  Sometimes I’m just frustrated.

And I think it’s my own fault. I’ve gone about a week without putting on my gym shoes.  I’ve gone even longer without rolling out my mat for yoga… I feel unhappy with the way my clothes are fitting and pretty unhappy with the way my mind is feeling at the end of the night.  I’ve been sleeping restlessly and waking up groggy only to start the day in a grumpy mood.  I know I need to spend some time working on me.  That’s been hard for me.  I usually make sure that everyone else is happy with me and my performance before I make sure that I am happy with me.  And usually when I get to the time that it’s time to think about me, it’s time for bed…

As the cursor blinks at me, I think about all of the things that I need to be doing.  I need to get out of the house!  When did I become a hermit??  When I come home from work, the last thing I want to do is think about what I’m going to do after dinner.  We always look for new movies or shows to keep us entertained when we should really get back to reading good books and walking the dog.  I need to nourish my mind with good things and not junk.

I now have a job which allows me to be a little more flexible.  I always said I wanted a job that would allow me to work out in the middle of the day.  Now that I have it, I’m not down in the gym nearly enough.  It would definitely help my attitude if I did a workout mid-day instead of spending 8 straight hours looking at a brightly lit monitor.

If I am going to be happy with things, I need to give myself a chance to succeed.  I don’t think I need to set up a hard plan or make any promises, I just need to make myself happy!  That means making sure that I don’t let the little things get to me and really enjoy the things that are going to get me moving in the right direction.